The Disclosure
So here’s the deal.
I haven’t been writing here regularly for the past 3 years because I have been hesitant to have friends from church read something that might color their idea of me. As the drummer for Max Lucado’s, church I have a responsibility to act in a leadership fashion and some of my thoughts – they can be strong at times – might distract from the message and put the focus on me.
But as of late I have needed to put some of what I am thinking in the personal record of mine that is Despicable Horses. Before I became a Christian 3 years ago I used to write here freely about my life, thoughts, politics and more regardless of whether people agreed or hated what I wrote – after all, they are my thoughts.
I intend to use this in the same fashion again.
So I will say this:
1. The opinions expressed here are mine and only mine.
2. Occasionally I get pissed off about something and I need to vent, this is where I do it. If you are offended by cursing and contentious topics then don’t visit the site – problem solved.
3. I change my mind. A lot. So today I may be against something and then I read something new and my opinion will change. It’s a normal thing as evidenced by my opinions before and after reading the bible. It always baffles me when people take issue with people when they change a previously expressed opinion - seriously, peoples view change, it called growing; I am more worried about the people whose opinions are immovable.
4. Nothing I say here is final, just my thoughts at that moment. They are called feelings and can’t ever be wrong - I just tend to express mine freely. I am one of those “Where my feelings on my sleeve” kinda people.
5. I am bipolar. That means that sometimes I feel very passionate about something and sometimes that changes quickly.
6. I am a new Christian and I still struggle with some of God’s logic. I question Him often – sometimes lovingly and sometimes angrily – both of which are my right. If that seems blasphemous to you, don’t read my thoughts - problem solved.
7. Although it may seem so by reading all of this and the posts that I am angry, I am not. I am ecstactic 99.9% of the time, I just don’t write as much during the happy times - I write more when I am troubled so it comes off all one-sided. Don’t worry, I am happy with my God, my family, myself and my friends.
8. I hate having this disclosure but it’s necessary so things I write about aren’t taken the wrong way.
9. I am doing the best I can to be the best ___________ (fill in the blank) I can so don’t judge me, it isn’t a right given to you.
10. I welcome comments and challenges to my opinions. A spirited debate serves us all well
